It was not my first time. I had already let him hear me cumming on the phone. He heard it and loved it. We have been sharing this ultra hot exchange in which he jerks off and cum to me on the phone. Sometimes I get a voice mail when I wake up in the morning. In the afternoon when we have a moment, he will sneak off and jerk his cock for me… cumming when I tell him too. It’s so fucking hot and I have been soaking wet for days. All day long. He sent me a picture of his cock and I am so hungry for it. It has this fucking hot curve that will rub my gspot like nothing I’ve ever seen.

So when he told me to go home and cum for him, I wanted to do it well. While the play on the phone puts me a little more in the dominant role, lets be serious… I’m not a dom and I want him to want me the way I want him. So I got settled and lubed up the new cock. I was hiding in my bathroom like a slutty teenager hiding from her siblings. I straddled the cock and got started while I called Sean. I love his voice… it’s so inviting and warm.

I rode the cock hard. Begging him and moaning, calling his name. The cock is so big. It’s so fucking big and it feels so good. I did not want to stop fucking it- ever. My legs started to shake and I crashed down hard on it, imagining it to be Sean. Harder, fuck me harder. Fuck, please let me cum. Oh fuck I’m going to cum. Ohfuckfuckfuck…. yes fuck me, fuck me seeeeaaaaann….

I lost myself and came so hard. Shaking and pouring my cum on to the dildo so it was slippery. I shook and trembled, and didn’t stop. I got on my knees and grabbed the dildo, pushing it into my pussy faster and harder- until the balls of the cock were slapping against my clit and I came again. Moaning and crying… ohgodsean oh daddy thank you. thank you, fuck it so good, so good, ohfuck don’t stop don’t stop don’t stop. so goooood.

Right as I was done, the time ran out on his voicemail. I had a few more seconds to wrap it up and I disconnected.

and waited….

Standing up I realized that I hurt myself. I was sort of cramping inside, from the cock that bottomed out inside me. But I was still feeling so good.

waiting….

he sent me a test message later saying I was a good slut, that I had pleased him.

but strangely, I feel odd. Completely exposed. Vulnerable.

Why is that??

Afraid it was too much. I completely lost myself to him. No control, no holding back. Ohmygod, what did I say?? he messaged me again saying it was amazing. I am amazing. I want his approval. I don’t want him to be turned off by my lack of control. My verbal assault on my body. I want him to want me. Really want me. I don’t know why I feel this way. I hate it. I am much more brazen than this. I am usually bold and unafraid. But he is different. He’s interesting and has this fantastic life that I am so attracted to. He is sucking me into this behavior that is so fucking hot. So deviant and so amazing.

Perhaps this is dangerous. I find myself completely hooked on this. He is like heroin.

Pass me the needle and the dirty spoon.