craving the girl
I’m so damn distracted today. It’s not a week to be distracted because I’m so busy I actually have a headache from trying to manage all this shit. I had a nightmare last night that was totally from anxiety. An anxiety attack in my sleep. Lacey called moments after I woke up, it was weird. She didn’t wake me from the dream, but she was there- as if to sense that I needed to hear her voice. Sometimes she calms me.
Perhaps it’s the way that I try to care for her that helps me keep my balance. I’m not sure. It was still nice to hear her voice considering moments before I was stuck in a dream and gasping for air while people ignored my cries for help. I’m still not sure what to think about that.
It’s been a few days since I’ve seen her. I miss her a little bit. Which is strange, considering. She makes me laugh. She is such a breath of fresh air sometimes and I have grown fond of her quirky crazy ways. I suspect that I’m the only girl she sees, although I know there are many guys she sees on and off. I don’t ask too many questions, I don’t really care. As long as she is there for me when I want her, my bi-curious desires are quieted. Still I have no real desire to bottom with her. She has suggested a few times, and I admit that her fingers on my body make me burn- but in the end, I just want to consume her flesh, and then be on my way. Strange.
I have been told that a woman’s tongue on my pussy is about the closest to heaven you can get. And perhaps it’s true. I imagine her soft lips would probably kiss and caress me in the most perfect way, but I am so impatient and so damn hungry for her flesh I simply won’t allow it. Her skin is this creamy pale white that is like porcelain. It’s like licking milk from a bowl.
She is not interested in the guys I fuck. She doesn’t want them- she doesn’t want to climb in bed with me and a partner, nor does she want me to climb in bed with her and one of her boys. She comes for me. I think she likes knowing how much I just want to get her off. How when she is around me, she knows that I will soon be laying her down. Peeling her panties off her curves and licking my way up her thighs, inhaling the scent of her pussy and and pushing my tongue up her cunt until she quivers on my lips and drips onto my tongue.
fuck, distracted me again. I can already taste her on my lips. She better fucking be available for lunch.
I can see why she wants you alone, and you her
Well. Um. Now I am distracted.
And I don’t blame her either for wanting you to herself….