I was up late last night watching video clips on youporn. The one I linked below was the one that did me in. I was squirming in my seat so hard, squeezing my legs together and wondering if I could cum from just that. There are few things that get me that hot. Where the pressure in my cunt causes physical heat and I feel like it could burst with just one touch. I climbed into bed with my laptop and watched the video one more time. It reminded me of me and Lacey, although we have never done anything like that before. I thought of her, below me- her pale creamy legs spread and her pussy open for me. I would love to grind up against her like that. More just to see her in that position, again, open, as if I was fucking her with a cock. Holding onto her ankles, and watching her grabbing onto the sheets, moaning and writhing below me.

I pushed my rabbit inside me and came as soon as the buzzing hit my clit. It was powerful and violent, thrusting my hips, my stomach tightening and spasming from the orgasm. It was fast and hard. Too fast and left me breathless. I laid in bed for a while, wide awake, catching my breath when an IM popped up on my screen.

I hadn’t seen Z online in a while, but he was there and wanted me. I positioned my webcam and microphone and lay back on my bed while we talked. He watched me laying there, lazily fondling my breasts while I listened to his sexy voice in my ear. His voice soothes me. He calms me, even when he has me in a frenzy. He speaks to my soul and calms the demons. He knows this, and this is why I can’t stay away. He is as important to my mental sanity as my medication for the same thing.

He told me that his cock was hard, watching me play with my tits and he wanted to see more. Close your eyes baby, he told me, I’m right here with you. I let my eyes close and listened to the rhythm of his voice. He told me how beautiful I am. He described the curves of my body, asking me to touch each part as he spoke. I imagined it was his fingers, tracing a line over my breasts, and down my stomach and in between my legs. I opened them so he cold watch me, sliding my fingers through my wet lips, letting my knees fall open. Though I had cum once, I was still aching. Wanting that tease, that build up, that burning ‘fuck me’ feeling that makes me beg.

That’s it baby- rub your pussy for me.

I stroked small circles around my clit, my eyes still closed, following his instruction. around and around- mmm, that’s so sexy baby. Where’s you vibrator? Let me see it. I reached over to the nightstand and grabbed my small egg vibe. I needed that steady buzzing on my clit. I never looked at the camera, I just laid back, following his voice. Rubbing the vibe over my clit, slowly, teasingly. Dipping it into my wet hole, and dragging it up and over my pussy. again baby- slow. that’s it. Rub it on your clit, I want to suck on it. lick and suck your pussy until you cry. I pushed the vibe on my clit, ooooh. Rubbing gently, looking for the sweet spot. Past the previous orgasm, searching for the lost sensitivity. Knowing it is there, right there. On the right. My clit was so hard, I wanted it so bad. I knew, it would take some time, but it would be a hard and consuming.

Baby, that’s so good. I want you baby. I want you so bad. I need you so bad. I want to see you cum. Fuck, I want to fuck you so hard right now. I want to climb between your legs and sink my cock in you while you vibe your clit. I want to feel the vibrations on the head of my cock while I fuck your g-spot. That’s it baby. Oooh, your legs are shaking. So close, huh baby? Tell me….

My mouth opened and I moaned loud. I was so close. I lifted my knees, spreading my legs wide. Can I cum baby? Oh please, can I cum? I was so close- I knew I needed to just angle the vibe, just barely. Just a hair upwards and my body would take over for me. I begged, please baby please?

Tell me that you’re my good girl. That you’ll be good. Tell me and you can cum for me.

Oh yes. I’ll be your good girl. Oh god, please. Please, I’ll be your good girl. Oh god… ohhhh yes baby. Yes, fuck Z, yes. Ahhhhh oh god. Now, oh fuck NOW!!

I’m cumming baby, open your mouth for me. Oh fuck, swallow my cum slut. Oh fuck yes.

I came in rushes, consuming me. My mouth open as if to take his shots of cum into my mouth- closing my legs tight and thrusting, fucking my orgasm for him and gasping for air. I wished he was there with me. My heart ached hard for him, wanting to feel his arms around me and the way he throws his body over mine after I cum so hard. Stroking my hair and loving me back to earth. I miss you, I said, my eyes closing again, turning my head slightly away from the camera. My body exhausted and my heart crushing. I tried not to show it, so I just kept my eyes closed and drifted off to sleep to the sound of his voice.

I miss you too baby. Happy New Year.